Whoa. What a crazy, intense, emotional week it has been.
The good: First Comes Love hit the Top 20 on amazon, and the Top 100 on Amazon AUS, CA, and UK, making it an internationally best selling book. I got on the Overall Bestselling Top 100 author list on amazon. I got an offer for print rights for FCL to be in bookstores nationwide.
What. The. F&%K. I keep looking wondering if somehow my eyes are playing tricks on me or I'm looking at the wrong book. I always dreamed that I would hit these goals, but honestly didn't think it would happen anytime soon. Now that it is, it's surreal. Very surreal.
And I'm extremely humbled that people I don't know are buying and reading my book. A book that kicked my ass in the worst way. I wrote this book right after having a baby (who had her days and nights mixed up for about 2 months). I gave up sleep and sanity for this book and wanted to throw in the towel many times. If I've ever learned a lesson in not giving up and to "keep on keeping on", this was it.
The bad: I lost my sweet boy, Mystery. After two weeks of struggling to get him to eat and drink, his condition was deemed neurological with no cure and I made the hardest decision of my life to let him go with dignity and painlessly cross the Rainbow Bridge. My heart is broken over the loss of my horse. He was 25. He lived a long, good life. Remembering that comforts me, but I miss him so much it hurts.
I can say with certainty that it is weird to have all of your career and book goals coming true at the same time you lose one of your best friends. The flip-flopping emotions is exhausting, more than I ever imagined.
But one thing the events of this past week has shown, is that I have some pretty amazing friends, family, and readers who are their to support and celebrate my success, and express sorrow and empathy for my loss.
I can only say "thank you" so many times before it gets redundant, but seriously, thank you. Having you all with me through the ups and downs means more than I can express. <3